Maybe I did mess up, but that’s not the end of the story.

The split before the shift.. An uncomfortable alchemy I didn't see coming..

Sometimes we make plans for a big shift, and the Source has other ideas. Sometimes we plan it all out, like an outfit before an event, and then, the closer it gets to the day, the less the outfit feels like you. You know exactly what I mean, right?

I heard Seren Bertrand say this week that “before the shift, there is a split”. A point where we see the new version of ourselves on the web of creation, and yet we have not fully become her. For that to happen, there is an magickal process that needs to unfold.

With this in mind, I'm delaying my book publication until 2026. Ah, the feeling of relief and self-disappointment when I say this. But here’s why...

Last week, in a discussion with my friend who has so lovingly agreed to edit my book-baby, she asked me a simple question: “Do you want to publish a good book? Or do you want to publish an incredible book?”

My face scrunched in the obvious response as I listened to her voice note. Then she said something along the lines of: “Some people, you know, Charlie-they publish books just to say they published a book. There are some incredible parts in your book, and I’m wondering what your answer is before I send you back the edited manuscript, that’s all.”

I sat there in my PJs, waiting for my coffee, and considered why I was writing this book -the one that had been swimming around in my mind and whispering in my ear for years. It was never about sales funnels or writing for the sake of writing. And we both knew that. I wouldn’t have asked her to hold my fragile edits and awful grammar if I didn’t think she knew this.

So, with the file back on my laptop, I read my words back to myself. I removed chunks of text, and surprisingly, thousands of words were taken to a file for another book.
(Spoiler alert: it seems there’s to be more than one.) And then I realised: who I was when I started this book is very much not who I am now. Right now, I’m sitting in that space between the previous me and the future me. I suppose I thought writing a book about the past would be easy.

Turns out, it needs all the versions of me and my voice to show up. And for that to happen, on the most gospel-type level, it needs more oxygen and space to be able to hold what needs to go onto the page. I need more time. And so, we are pushing the date back. Not because I’m giving up, but because there’s so much more I want to say. So, it’s not back to the beginning for me and this book, but the revealing of another layer. This is also why there will be no Sacred Weaving next week. I have higher realm prep to do for our Project Earthwork - Grailgates of Gaia workshop in Glastonbury next month (Three places left if you call the call!)

I do have a parting question for you, especially in this week of the summer solstice energies, because when I look around, everyone seems to be standing at some kind of threshold towards a new version of themselves or a higher timeline of their life.

So I wonder: What is the new you calling you toward? What does it feel like? What emotion does it bring up for you?

I’ll be spending my solstice on the moors with friends on both sides of the veil. However your threshold feels, know I am sending you oceans of love from my heart to yours, and remember there can be no big shifts without first feeling the discomfort of the split.

Cxx